It’s Official. I’m a Housewife!

It has been a month since I quit working and signed up for a new job. Housewife.. Aah the designation I craved for ever since I started working. As much as I love my career, I’ve always envied housewives for all-the-time-in-the-world they’ve got; cooking, raising their own kids, waking up late and sleeping during the day, not meeting deadlines. Hahhahahahaha. (if you can hear me laugh, it echoed far and beyond). That was a wrong assumption ever. I found out being a housewife is even more challenging than doing project management & coordination. Phew!
Of course I’m not going to list down all the reasons why. It could go on forever from the moment you wake up, diaper changing, being peed on, getting sleepy but don’t-u-dare-sleep cos the kids won’t let you, constant whining in your ears, pulling legs, temper tantrums, play pretend, lucky if you had a lunch, and… forget about shower.
But while I’m still on the cloud nine and not meeting deadlines, I should cherish every single moment here. So far, we haven’t really miss Malaysian food because I practically cook Malaysian food everyday. We brought a lot of dried groceries such as curry powder, sup bunjut, lemongrass, belacan, curry leaves, turmeric and many more. Sometimes we eat outside. The difference between Korean & Malaysian food is the healthy clean diet (with little to zero amount of oil) and everytime we eat outside, they will serve a tumbler of plain water for free (boring I want my soda gembira and Milo dinosour).
Adapting to a new eating habit feels great especially the part where I no longer see syg munching Mamee Monster and Twisties while watching TV, instead he eats seaweed and mixed nuts. I cook Korean and Chinese food a couple of times a week. I begin baking again. Weekends are meant for sightseeing, family projects and grocery shopping. I guess that basically describes an ordinary life of a housewife. Tell you the truth, 20% of my time goes to cooking, 10% goes to laundry and dishes (since there’s an “ahjumma” who does housekeeping everyday), 10% goes to my husband (pity syg), another 60% goes to my clingy boys (so unfair!)
And…
A very little percentage (zero decimal points) goes to myself. Hahha. Sometimes at night, syg will let me go out on my own so I can breathe. Otherwise, the only time I can think straight is when my kids are asleep, during shower and hmmm.. when I’m about to doze off and end up awake for another hour or so. So typical being a mom, right?
From the top left going clockwise: Sizzling Yee Mee, Pajeon, Bulgogi, Bokeumbap tak jadi, Spaghetti with Mussels and Honey Roasted Chicken with Ginger
Late night grocery shopping is extremely thrilling. Fresh foods are discounted from 20% to 50%.

A Little Effort

Waking up early before dawn has made the difference. Irfan woke up super early too asking for “susu hot”. Papa tried to put him back to bed but obviously he will not sleep coz mama wasn’t sleeping. I took him out to the hall, showed some flash cards and let him help me clean up the mess.
The moment papa went off to work, Irfan cried cos I didn’t wanna let him watch Iron Man. I promised myself not to let him win this time. So I took him to the window and told him to look outside where he can see the real world. The buildings and vehicles. The people who went out to work, the birds and the trees. Finally I told him, “let’s take a bath and we’re going out to the park, okay”. And he followed me.
The day went well subhanAllah, just because I woke up before fajr, switched off the TV, played and giggled. We walked to The Children Grand Park and played at Children’s Museum for two hours. He asked for “susu hot” and when finished as usual he will always said “dah abish”. After telling me he wanted to sleep, he immediately tucked himself in the stroller and closed his eyes. I took subway back home and to my surprise, I couldn’t find any elevator at the exit. Lucky me there’s someone who cared to help me carry the stroller downstairs and up again.
Later that night, Irfan ate his dinner and drank apple juice which is so unlikely of him. He just needed a little time and attention from me to respond and listen well. Alhamdulillah I realize as a mother, I constantly need to sit back, reflect and restrategize my plans. Of course, by doing this I am withholding a lot of things I wanted to do. But none of that matters because the result is incredible. Nothing beats seeing our kids jolly and calmer like that.
Being a role model to our children and maintaining our sanity can be very difficult. Sometimes, I can just snapped out of the blue *sigh* I am sucha bad mother. I so have a long long way to go don’t I? But I’ve learned that by taking baby steps and focus on our purpose, at least we are moving towards becoming better at parenting. (obviously trying to make myself feel better, haha)
“Ok mama, I am not interested and I’m going to find something else”
The Wood Cabin with a slide
Up up up and away on the cabin my little explorer
“Omnomnom..is this the same banana papa usually eats?”
“Hey little monster fella, you’re not gonna hurt my brother don’t ya?”
The doll: “Oookay now, not my dress”
Less than 10 secs arranging fish scales and off he went away, this is so boring
“Mmm so many toys which one should come into my mouth first?”

Autumn: Children’s Grand Park

Boy he seems so cool, not wanting to wear his cap and gloves while it’s freezing out here.
Irfan says “Agerrr”  (Tiger)
Irfan’s first Pony Ride
Irfan’s impulse obsession with Meerkats and it seems to enjoy his company
Take five! Time for snack
SubhanAllah, Alhamdulillah, Allahuakbar, beautiful shades of vibrant leaves

Autumn is coming to an end here in Seoul, so we decided to go out and experience it’s beauty while it still lasts. But bear in mind having two active little munchkin boys to tag along has become a very challenging task for new parents like us from cooking breakfast, getting them ready for the day, and ensuring not to miss anything in our travel kit (diapers, milk powder, snacks, wet wipes, etc you name it).

Children’s Grand Park is located 1 km away from our apartment. Thought of walking but naah, it’s too cold, we should just ride a taxi (for 4000 won). Taking subway is another option but it is less convenient to bring a stroller as we need to cross the road and climbed up the stairs without escalator or elevator.

We passed the main entrance and stopped by the Information Counter to take a map. The park consists of Animal Villages, Children’s Museum, Amusement Park, Outdoor Performance Hall, Character World, Botanical Garden, Musical Fountain, Kids Auto Park and Football Field. And tadaa we scored ONE out of all parks. Hahha. Obviously we took the animal village because Irfan has this crazy obsession of animals. The Animal Village are divided into Fierce Animals, Small Animals, Reptiles, Marine Animals and Children’s Zoo.

Going out with your little ones means that there are a threshold limit that they can stand. After that limit comes temper tantrums. This time, Irfan threw tantrum because he refused to sit in his stroller and didn’t wanna go out from the zoo while baby Musa on the other hand got cranky because he was restless and mama was overjoyed that she missed his feeding time, lol.

Good thing the park provides nursing room at almost all rest checkpoints. This is something HUGE for mothers, isn’t it? Being able to travel around and not worry to find hideouts to nurse our babies. However, it’s good to bring nursing cover too, in case of emergency temper tantrum which needs immediate nursing in public. Hahha.
(blog update: turned out all parks provide this kind of facilities, including Nami Island weee)

I really feel I didn’t do justice to describe how awesome the park is. Therefore, you can find more information about this park through these websites:
http://kidsfuninseoul.wordpress.com/playing/amusement-parks/childrens-grand-park/
http://www.visitkorea.or.kr/enu/SI/SI_EN_3_1_1_1.jsp?cid=1051832

Is it goodbye already?

Ok let’s get this straight. This is an emotional post because it is the last working day for me. Jap nak ambil sapu tangan lap air mata. 
The decision to quit is solely personal and doesn’t have anything to do with anyone at workplace. Well..of course there were times I wish I had a girl office-mate to lunch with especially on Fridays. At least someone I can talk to when I had to sneakout to express  my breastmilk two times a day. I was a loner back then. Nasib baik ada Fitri the life saver! Nak pergi surau pam susu bagitau je kat Fitri ngan buat muka seposen. Lama2 cakap macam nie je, “Fitri, macam biasa la sy gi surau dulu”, sambil menjinjit cooler bag berwarna merah. Dekat office Fitri (our clerk) lebih berkuasa daripada manager (bak kata En. Mus). 
Ok, moving on..I’d sincerely want to thank my colleagues for throwing a small farewell party for me and the rest of the loan staffs from PTGM and PONSB who’d been supporting us during a very recent project called P2-30A. Tak sempat nak tengok new model launch in 2014. No words can describe how thankful I am, first and foremost to my manager, En. Mus, who chose to employ me to work within this organization. He had no idea I was three months pregnant during the interview. Kalau dia tahu memang la tak dapat kan, sebabnya nature bekerja di Prototype Centre ni tak sesuai dengan wanita hamil.

Akan tetapi Allah Maha Memberi, He answered my prayer. He knew I desperately need a job. Alhamdulillah, a couple of months after the interview, I was officially employed to work with amazing people for two and a half years. (dua tahun lebih je pun rileks la kan). They gave me a paradigm shift on my first perception towards Proton. Eh laa dah terbocor nama company. 

To my superior, En. Asri, thank you for your guidance, motivation, reminder and criticism. Without them I wouldn’t have build self-confidence and wouldn’t be able to sustain criticism in a positive manner. Thanks to you, I learned to be tough and be bold to fight for our stance.  
To my colleagues, (Wan, Najmi (dah resign masuk Petronas), Hafiz, Haniff, Herul, Nik Amin, En. Azwan, En. Din, En. Malik, En. Jasman), thank you for your support and assistance throughout my tenure in Prototype. For being my backbone during ups and downs. Hangpa memang cool la..Orang Melayu kata “tak pernah berkira buat kerja”. Thanks for not judging me despite my MCs and Late Comings. Hehe. Terima kasih kepada yg belanja goreng pisang, jambu batu, pizza, nasik bungkus, chocolate, hatta hingga sekeping biskut pun..terima kasih hanya Allah sahaja dapat membalasnya.
To respective team leaders and technicians, (Abg Man, Tajul, Abg Ramli, Abg Rahim, Fadzli, Razi, Syamil), I am very proud to be working with you. Honestly, I am amazed by your depth of knowledge and expertise in developing prototype vehicles. The best of all is the spirit of teamwork that you projected throughout daily tasks, even after more than twenty years working with Proton. Buat report pun kalah engineer. Haih. Malu2..
Ok, lepas tu paling best skali kat Proton ni ialah ada so called ‘RND Mother’s Support Group’ whose endless moral support somehow had encourage working moms to continue breastfeeding our babies. Kalau tertinggal pam susu takpe jangan bimbang banyak je ibu2 yg boleh pinjamkan skali ngan botol susu. Working mothers are awesomeee! I knew I will miss you the most. Walaupun kat office takde sorang pun kawan perempuan, tp bila naik atas nak solat dapat kenal dan sembang2 ngan kawan perempuan RND. Sampai boss ckp networking saya power sbb kenal semua org. Haa tu la kelebihan dia. Dekat Prototype takde surau perempuan, jadi kena berjalan jauh sedikit utk solat. Takpe dapat pahala jalan kaki, naik tangga, lagi2 masa mengandung. 
Apa lagi nak cerita pun taktahu, cuma tak sangka dalam masa yg singkat bekerja tetapi diberi berbagai-pagai peluang. Waktu training memula masuk tu memang blur especially waktu morning market P3-21A (Preve). Apasal kecoh sangat kat Prototype ni semua orang keluar masuk macam shopping mall pulak. En. Azwan jadi coordinator. En. Jasman pulak update part status. Bila dah update part status tau2 je la nnt PMO dan GP akan sound vendor la part2 yg lambat sampai or part yg ada quality issues. Lepas tu jakun pulak sbb tgk consultant dari German pun ada. Haa tiap2 hari diorang kluar masuk tgk vehicle build-up. Suasana sangat tegang setiap pagi sebab nak meet prototype build up schedule, vehicle testing punya schedule lagi. Part pulak lambat sampai. Lepas tu bila part sampai quality tak OK, orang salahkan quality tak check. Paling blur bila En. Azwan panggil suruh layan group CMSS buat inspection CO2 weld dekat crash car. Dah la tak tau part name. Jadi mcm crash course. Begitu la kisahnya. Memang drama jugak kadang-kadang. 
Kalau nak cerita lagi mmg boleh buat buku yg bertajuk pengalaman bekerja di Prototype Centre. Daripada overseas inspection, budget control, budget challenge, project management and coordination, vendor visit, BQCM sampai ke design office & toilet pun buat. Jadi, biarlah dulu sampai di sini coretan saya untuk entri ini.
They say,

Whatever begins will eventually end…
InsyaAllah I’m yet to open another chapter in my little adventure book. I sincerely thank each one of you for being the puzzle piece of my life. You have somehow affected me in one way or another. 
Sincerely, 
Iron Lady

Reflection: Ramadhan 1434H

Ramadhan has brought me into a deep state of self-reflection. A journey towards inner peace that I will never forget. We feel that we don’t deserve to be wronged. It is hard to swallow the fact that we as human being always make mistakes and sometimes even failed at challenges life throws.

But we learn to pick ourselves up and rise again no matter how many times we fall and break. Allah is the Most Merciful and Forgiving. So forgive and seek forgiveness because there are always flaws and shortcomings even in good deeds. Redha for what has been written in the Luh Mahfuz.

The simplest effort that we tend to forget is through our daily supplication. Never underestimate the power of making DU’A because it has a great impact in our lives.

Farewell Ramadhan, you will be missed.

Back to Blogging

I recently had a revelation to come up with a new blog. Sunny With A Chance of Donuts will be terminated soon due to a reason I couldn’t disclose here. Let’s start fresh, shall we?

With the arrival of baby Musa two months ago, my life is entirely occupied with them little munchkin boys, running to feeding demands while doing laundry and dishes. And you can imagine the rest. (a little dramatic for an intro though).

Nevertheless, Musa had been understanding so far, Alhamdulillah. He sleeps for long hours as if he knew mama needed some rest. I stayed up a little late everynight to make sure I stock up enough EBM (expressed breastmilk) as I’m only few days away to start working again (erghh..still in denial).

I thought of finding a new hobby such as homedecorating ideas. Eventually, syg brought back new magazines for me the other day. He probably thinks I need an intervention from going through the same IKEA magazine for the umpteenth times! Though I’ve shown less enthusiasm as I flipped back and forth, I somehow managed to bookmark some of my favorite ideas.

And now stealing couple of hours past midnight, I thought of sharing some ideas for home decoration. Suppose a little bit of caffeine won’t do much harm to a nursing mum, no? *yawn*
I am practicing flower arrangements since forever but still failed at it. My kind of arrangement can only be boring like this….

cheap pebbles and pretty lavenders from KK Home Deco

So with great effort, I drove an empty flower pot (found at IKEA) to the nearest florist and asked for a pastel combination to complement the plain white walls. This was two months ago before my second labor.

artificial flowers from Fleur
pastel colored flower pot from IKEA

It took a while to hear from syg that he actually thought the combination is not okay because he thinks that red long branch doesn’t suit the pastel combination. Nevermind…

After that pastel hues, came a collection of vintage tin boxes…

which I think is perfect to store your craft supplies, cookies and sweets.
They even make a great display on the wall 🙂
(vintage tins found at Kaison outlet)